Gone

So, here is how I feel. I am flling back, back into my depression. I dont know what to do to stop it. It's like, if I'm with my friends I am fine. The moment they leave, my mind starts to turn and won't stop. I cant help but think of Chris. I really had feelings for him...more so than a lot of my ex's. He actually made me feel like a guy actually cared for me, for once in my life. Now, he won't even talk to me, and I don't know why. I've tried talking to him. Theres nothing else I can do. Ugh, I also have pink eye. I probably got it from work. I had to call off for a while so now I am also worried about losing my job. I miss college. I can't wait to go back. yet, I'm worried it could make how I feel worse. Although, it could make me think less about things and more about academics. .sigh. I'm at a loss of words now, so I'll talk to you all later.

Love, David