Bipolar

Okay so...I think I should be tested for Bipolar disorder...heres a check list I have made of symptoms I have...

-Inability to concentrate. lately its been really hard for me

-Decreased need for sleep

-Euphoria

-Racing thoughts

-Agitation or irritation

-Inflated self-esteem

-Anxiety

-Depression

-Flunctuations between low and high appetite

-Fatigue

-Guilt

-Loss of interest in daily activities

Im afraid my dear youve already made up your mind you just dont want to tell me

You're all about yourself

The more you keep your own secrets, the more i'll keep mine.

People..People

Okay, so, people have been getting on my nerves a lot lately. Honestly, don't make plans with me if youre just going to blow me off. best friends would never do that! So, why do people still call themselves best friends when they mainly just care about themselves at the end of the day? Well, I rarely plan on top of another plan. If I do its an honest mistake. But, I know people who have done this to me quite a few times. Im just really sick of it. I'm also sick of some people not respecting my decisions. Sorry sir but my life does not revolve around you. =) I am my own person and yes my friends help define me. I am totally okay with that because without them life just wouldnt be so exciting! I really only have 2 friends that I can truly call my BEST friends.

I want my fears to fall
into his stone goblet of fire.
Igneous, perishing, eventually vanishing,
into moonlit glowing embers.

I want my dreams to fall
into his crystalline wine glass.
Calefacient, revealing, cajoling,
into bantam fizzy bubbles.

But most of all-

I want my tears to fall
into his half empty cup of coffee.
Warm, inviting, splashing,
into the murky unknown.

by: David Bonser

Okay, so this is my first blog-lame, I know. I figured, I need to start releasing some of my thoughts. This could actually do the opposite though. Maybe it will cause me to think too much of things? If it does, will it stop me? Who honestly wants to read about a 19 year old guy who lives in Sparta-and no, not the one in Greece?